It is going to be ok…
I tell myself that at least a hundred times a day. Do you find yourself doing that? You take on something that becomes bigger than you are; Bigger than you ever expected it to become... And then suddenly you find yourself responsible for things. Making decisions about things you really never intended to know anything about. And with each one you wonder, is it going to be ok?
Is this a good decision? Am I just convincing myself that it is the right thing to do, when in fact it could very well be a horrible decision in the long run? Is it going to be ok? That seems to be a question that haunts me these days.
As so many of you know that follow me, I got here quite by accident. This business, this day to day thing that I am doing, this work: it was not planned. So making gut decisions, not over thinking things and taking chances has worked out fairly well so far. Could that all change?
So what exactly is it that keeps me awake at night?
Do I expand? No, that would be too risky.
Do I buy new equipment? No way. What if business starts to fall away?
Do I hire more help? Never- Then I am responsible for other’s finances.
Do I just take the leap? Maybe, it has worked out this far.
Can I afford to keep moving forward?
Is all of this worth it?
Is this the right direction?
Is it going to be ok?
I spend hours agonizing over my decisions. I know, I am not alone in this. We all have our sleepless nights worrying if we are moving in the right direction.
So, here’s what I decided to do: I added help. I bought equipment. I wrote a check to rent machinery. And I am moving forward. Scared. Nervous. Worried.
Every single day, I am scared, nervous, and worried that I’ll fail mostly due to the inexperience that so many want to remind me that I have in this line of work. I am often critiqued by those who feel I am WRONG and don’t know what I am doing in social media. It creates doubt. It causes me to think that It will not be ok. Is this TMI? Am I babbling from awkwardness?
Never mind, don’t answer that. I know the answer is unequivocally yes.
But I’m writing this letter as a way to bring you on this journey with me.
Sometimes social media has a way of making a situation appear one way, but the truth is always a little more complex. Aren’t all aspects of life like that?
The truth reveals fear, doubt, and insecurity in embarrassingly authentic ways, but I want to invite you in to share this moment with me as I take new chances, learn, and try to grow. Why? Because I can’t wait to share everything I learn along this journey and continue to move us closer to our wildest dreams and passions. I hope my journey inspires others to take risks and dream big.
As friends, entrepreneurs, and like-minded people; Here’s to making big decisions...together and hoping It is all going to be ok.